Your time will come.....

Ugh, if I hear that one more time I think I am gonna scream....as I am sure anyone else who is on the TTC journey will agree.  My hubby, step-daughter, and I went to a surprise birthday party for my aunt this past Saturday...who knew the surprise would be on me.  My youngest cousin who got engaged after me, but married before me, gathered the whole family around shortly after everyone had arrive, so her and her hubby could make an announcment... I knew what was coming so I am thankful that my hubby and I were at the back of the "crowd"...as soon as I heard the words "were pregnant"...my heart just sank. I scrambled out of the room to the empty living room and tried to fight the tears.  My other aunt must have known instantly how this would affect me because she was there in an instant...and then came my hubby, he calmed me and made me laugh and gave me words of encouragement (i knew his heart was breaking too)...just what I needed and just in time because the "crowd" had broke and everyone was making there way back into the living room. I got my self together and walked over to my cousin gave her a hug and congratulated her. And I meant it, I am really happy for her and her husband, they will be great parents...it just really hurt because I thought we'd be next to share news like that, and jsut FYI, I will NOT gather my whole family and make an announcement like that..NO WAY.  I am not sure if my cousing picked up on my sadness, I hope not because it was not my intentions to put a damper on such wonderful news.  Of course as the night went on I had to listen to everyone tell me, you are next, your time will come, don't worry you will get pregnant, and on and on and on. UGH, I know everyone truly means well, but it is exhausting and I try to have faith in it as well....but I really can't bear to hear that over and over.  I will pick myself up and life will go on and I will just hope and pray that one day I can tell my hubby that we have a BFP!!!!