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Thursday, April 8, 2010

You are always on my mind...

I usually talk to my hubby every morning either on the way to work or shortly after I get there and this morning was no different than any other. We talked  for a few, he told me that he thinks it is going to be a good day and then asked me if I was thinking about baby stuff?  Of course the obvious answer is yes, even though I try to not be "obssessed" with all things baby/pregnancy, it is hard to let it escape my thoughts completely. They come rushing back everytime I start my cycle again, when I have to check out a customer at my part time job buying a pregnancy test (really hard when it is the young nervous girl who was not planning this-yet we have been trying for 2 years), everytime a pregnant vendor walks in to my office, the news of a relative or friend expecting...yes I think of it. I find myself daydreaming of how I will tell my husband whenever I actually get a BFP, finally being able to tell me stepdaughter that she is gonna be a big sister (something that she requests frequently), what we will name our child, how will the nursery be decorated and on and on and on. Hubby said we have to quit stressing over this and just let it happen, it will happen. God I love him so much.  I do know that when we are pregnant and after I deliver, I will be able to look at my sweet baby and say you were always on my mind.

3 comments:

DaniKel said...

I know that it is hard now. But WHEN you get your BFP, and WHEN you hold your baby in your arms, you will know that even though it was a long and hard journey, it was what you had to go through to get him/her here. And you will know, that for whatever reason, that 'now' was the perfect time.

It will be soon. I know it will. Have faith, and follow your heart. Soon, you will be sharing with the world that your dream has come true. Soon. I just know it!

weird how my word verification is ommysi - and when I looked I saw Mommy si - like yes Mommy - like it is a sign... and I do believe in signs!!

Stephanie said...

I love you my BFF, you and your verification words..you make me laugh and give me hope. Thank u!

Nicolle said...

I know how you feel. It was constantly on my mind as well. I think you are doing everything possible and one day it will happen. I know my words don't help you too much, but it will happen! I can't wait to read your blog one day and hear you say you are expecting. You are a good person and you deserve lots of happiness!